It’s amazing how much our lives have changed in the last six months. In February of this year Ryan and I were actively planning out how we were going to be ready to move to Florida this year. We had every intention of quitting our jobs, packing up our house and moving to the gulf coast. We were certain that once we got to Florida and had established ourselves in our new jobs that we would begin the adoption process from our new home in the sunshine state. I love the ocean. I wanted to be the “Manatee whisperer” and live (what I thought was) my dream! The sound of the waves and the salty breeze gives me a peace that I can’t explain. I was willing to do anything in my power to make it happen this year. We had met with a realtor during our last visit. She began actively sending us listings of homes in our price range. (She still sends them….she isn’t giving up, neither am I! Haha!)
Fast forward just 2 short months and we found our plans completely wrecked by God’s plan for our life. We knew without any shadow of doubt that God was calling us to add to our family through adoption. He didn’t want us to wait until we moved to Florida. He wanted us to start the journey now. We couldn’t argue with what we knew and felt in our hearts. It was just too clear. We were sitting at our favorite park with our best friends talking about life and enjoying the warmer than average April day. We hadn’t really talked to anyone about our change of heart. We were nervous and scared and overwhelmed with our decision. Then suddenly, it just spilled out. Without warning, we laid out what had been on our hearts to our closest friends. From that moment on… the momentum has steadily been picked up the pace.
I had no idea what we were getting ourselves into when we started this journey. I knew it would be hard. I knew there would be days where I might think about changing my mind because it was just too overwhelming and difficult. I knew there would be tears and obstacles and people who didn’t support us in our decision to grow our family. More than all of that, I knew that I wanted to be a mother and Ryan wanted to be a father. I knew deep down in my soul that God was calling us to this journey. It was both terrifying and exciting. But, we put our first foot out, hand in hand, and started walking.
Over the last few months we’ve had countless people join us in our journey. We’ve had people join hands with us and walk beside us. We’ve had people step in and fight for us when we were overwhelmed & broken down by what seems to be a broken & flawed system. People we have never met haveencouraged us and loved on us. Ryan and I were talking the other night about how amazing it has been to have people love us and support us. The support has come from some of the most unexpected people and places. It’s been nothing short of incredible.
So, here we are on the cusp of our next BIG step. We’re so close to reaching our first big goal. In 6 months we needed to raise $8,200 to be able to make our first payment and sign our contract with Abba. The cost of adoption is staggering. I don’t agree with the astronomical expenses involved, but I can’t change the system. At least, not yet! $35,000 is a big number, but it really wouldn’t matter to us if the number was $100,000. We would do everything in our power to make it happen. You can’t put a price on a life. Our child is worth every ounce of effort, every tear and every single dollar. I believe with the fundraisers we have scheduled & currently going on that we will meet that first goal in early August. Can we say freak out?!
I’ll admit I’ve struggled with doubt throughout this process. I’ve talked about some of that throughout this journey. I’ve doubted every step of the way that the finances would pull togetherin enough time to make the first payment, and here we are. The thought of having to do it all over again not once, not twice, but nearly 3 times is scary. It’s overwhelming. We have been so encouraged and blessed by your generosity! We know that this is the path God has called us to. I think I struggle and doubt because I feel unworthy of the generosity that has already been shown to us. I feel unworthy of the calling God has placed on me, on us, to be parents to this child that God has already started to grow in our hearts.
I didn’t know it was possible to miss someone so much that I haven’t even met yet. They may not even be conceived at this point, but I miss the feeling of rocking them and cradling them in my arms. I worry about them having what they need both in their momma’s womb and in our house. Will my embrace and my love be enough to comfort their hurting hearts when the tough questions come? I let myself travel down the road of “what if’s” way too often. I need to make myself stop… and trust. Trust in the miracle of the story that God’s writing.
We’ve made it this far because of you allowing God to workthrough your generosity. We’re ready for this! We hope that you’re ready to keep writing this story right beside of us.
- Damsel in Defense – mydamselpro.net/brittney Be sure to click on our party, “wymerpartyof3” when ordering! We’ll receive 25% of sales from this party.
- Longaberger 1999 Edition “Traditions Generosity Basket” Picnic Basket Basket is Valued at $100. Winner will be drawn at the end of the rummage sale!
- Rummage Sale! August 7-8th at Calvary Chapel in Portsmouth. Let us know if you have donations! Drop off times and dates are being posted on facebook!
- T-Shirts! We have the old and the new! We’ll only be selling the old shirts in Heather Grey and Red. Old shirts are $15. The new shirts are Black with a Neon Rainbow logo. Those shirts are $18
- http://www.youcaring.com/ryan-cera-wymer-366061 is our crowd funding website that you can make donations to us at any time!