I try not to look at my countdown app every day. It just makes me spaz, so I try to space it out. I was caught off guard tonight when I logged in and saw that we have reached the 40’s as Dax’s due date is 49 days from today!! Part of me panicked…we only have 49 days until we meet our son! The other part of me felt like 49 days still seems so far away!
I have had the absolute pleasure of being able to check in with Dax’s birth mom on a regular basis. We chat some online every few days. It has been such a joy to get to know her some and share in some of the things she has experienced through her pregnancy.
As I sit here and think about how excited I am I find myself wondering how she must be feeling. Physically, I imagine she must be exhausted. I can’t imagine growing and carrying a baby is easy! Emotionally, I can’t imagine how she must be feeling. I’m sure she has so many emotions racing through her mind and her heart.
When we entered into this journey I wondered if I would get along with our child’s birth mother. I wondered if we would get to know each other or if things would be less than ideal. Now that we are working with “S” I can’t imagine anyone more perfect to carry this baby and walk this journey together.
Things can be awkward, because I’m awkward. Phone conversations are hard for me even with people I have known my whole life. But She is honestly great. She is funny and sweet and she has done such an incredibly selfless thing by choosing life and caring for this baby in such a big way.
While I am so incredibly excited to meet Dax and love on him, my heart is also aching for “S”. She has been on my mind and in my prayers a lot lately. It would mean a lot if you guys would also be praying for her over the next few weeks and months.